I've talked before about communicating with our loved ones about what we are going through and asking them for help. Letting them recognize your changes and routine roller coasters. But I want to go further on that topic and show the other side. The side that they will never know or understand.
My therapist opened my eyes when she said it is absolutely impossible for them to feel and experience what I am and my daily anxiety and struggles. It seems like a simple sentence, but it really really makes sense if you think about it. How can we expect someone to know why we can't breathe because on anxiety or if we're fighting the thoughts that rush through our minds. It's physically impossible for them to feel all of that. So with this, it goes back to communication.
We have to realize that they can't feel our pain. With the difficulties I'm having right now medicine wise, I have to know how my reactions are effecting my friends, family, and boyfriend. I have been a mess of emotions, and it changes within seconds. I can snap at the smallest thing, it could be the dog scratching her ear, and I'm done. But because my boyfriend can't understand what is going on in that moment, or what is going on in my head. I have to use my coping tools, and control my emotions to keep from hurting my loved ones. They can only see the outside and your reactions. Can you imagine being on the other side of the situation? It takes a lot to catch yourself acting out, breathe, figure out how to fix it, and telling your boyfriend what is going on, and apologizing.
The people in your life that truly love you, will stick by us. But we can't push the limits of this. They don't deserve to get the butt end of the problems, every single time. This is why we have to find coping tools and outlets to push out all of our emotions else where.
And if you are having days that feel like you're on a constant rollercoaster and drowning at the same time. TALK to someone. Even if they can't understand what you're going through, they want to be there for you. They want to help the best way they can. They love us, and know for the most part how depression and anxiety effects you. They can tell when things are out of routine or you seem different. Tell them you love them and thank them for their patience and support. They may not hear it as much as you think. We can't push our loved ones away. We need them in our lives, no matter what our past was.
So, I want to take a minute to thank everyone of my friends, family, and especially my boyfriend for the patience and support I get from each of you. The understanding you have of who I am. And even though you have no idea what it's like, you are still there when we need you. I may not say it enough, but I am so thankful for you in my life.
- DC xoxo
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