How can we talk to our loved ones about the changes we go through with the medicine that most of us take to help with anxiety and depression? I just got done reading an article about this topic, and they had some great points that I want to talk about how it affects me.
The thought that there is an option out there to help ease your mind and daily jitters can feel like a huge relief. When my doctor and I first started talking about some of the benefits, it felt like I had found an answer to some of my life long questions. (Of course, with the help of therapy too). I know there are people out there who would disagree with the option of medicating, and use alternatives. To each it's own, I think.
I want to write to explain to our loved one's what it's like to be on meds. I don't think it is something to be ashamed of. The whole taking medicine because of your mental illness (or as some say crazy) shouldn't have a stigma that comes with it. It's my life, my choice, and it helps me live without losing my mind. ANYWHOO. Back to friends and love ones.
Our medicine isn't just like ibuprofen, and make the pain go away in 30 minutes. It's waay more than that. Since the medicine helps create a chemical balance in your brain, it's going to take some adjustments. So if you are going through changes like me, it can feel like a rollercoaster. I don't want to speak for others, but the meds are a catch 22. The side effects can be awful like nausea, headaches, and weight gain. (Which is probably the worst of all). But we have to choose. What feels like sanity, or trying to carry it on your own.
Now that I am switching medicines, its withdrawals. It feels like your old self. You can feel it all changing. My anxiety took a new high this weekend. From OCD to a panic attack by just talking to someone about opening a new bank account. It's also the irritation and agrivation. The feeling of being on edge, like if the wind blew the wrong way, I would instantly turn into the Incredible Hulk.
Therapy has help me recognize my old ways and how to cope immediately. How to know that I'm feeling anxious and angry at everyone. We need to remember what is actually happening. I tell myself that it's the withdrawal of medicine. It's grabbing a handful of ice cubes and deep breaths to come back to where I am.
With the right support system, which we've talked about before, it make a whole difference in your journey. They know that this isn't normal you. But we have to communicate and say "Hey, I feel like a rage monster and want you to know, can you help me?" This gives them an idea of what is going on and can help you cope. I have the best support system. I know I can text my friends and say "I'm being a bitch right now, talk with me." And Lord bless my patient boyfriend for helping me deal and come out of it. Find a positive support system that loves you for you, even your Hulk moments.
Shoutout to my support group, ya'll get me and still love me.
-DC xoxo
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