How I Rediscovered My True Love

Creative. Discovery. Happiness. Lifestyle. These all describe what I really want more of in my life. I want the adrenaline of creating something new and unthought of. I am dazed by a blank canvas, sketch book page, or hand tools waiting to be used. I have rediscovered my true love for art.

As long as I have been in therapy, about 3 years now, I haven't felt the passion I used to for art. I grew up with it. I was always drawing, sketching, painting, or finding whatever activities I could do to keep my creative mind busy. And to know one day that I wouldn't even want to touch a pencil to draw, well I never imagined it. But it happened. What comes with depression is a lost of attraction. A lost to what you used to love. A lost from the world that you want to retract from. Over the years, I've wondered how can I find what I love, my art, again. How can I feel the rush of creativity again?

I will say that it has taken time. I'm not sure how or why, but it's back and I couldn't be happier. And I think it comes with other categories of life. Now that I've continued to find myself throughout last year to today, things have come together in a timing that I'll never understand why. It's funny that life has a way of working out, just like my dad always said. I can't roll my eyes at it anymore, because it is very true. It seems that life works in stages, leads you to the path so you can find your way, and then it's to the next stage. (Or a new door.. blah blah..).

So as of today, I have taught myself how to crochet. I have discovered hand calligraphy. I have started sketching again, and now picking my blog back up. I challenge everyone to find or rediscover your hobby. And if you don't feel like you have one, try a new one. It doesn't have to be a painting, maybe it's starting a garden. Maybe it's volunteering, or maybe it's even taking a walk or a new baking recipe.The point is to find what gives you peace and happiness. Truly, peace and happiness. What can you find that makes you feel like yourself again? With spring here and summer around the corner, the time is now. Let the sunshine fall on your face, breathe in the fresh air, and smile knowing that you are making a difference in your journey.

-DC xoxo